BLINDERS

Spiritual growth is an amazing thing. When I say "spiritual" what I mean is that complete package; mind, body, soul. To stretch yourself mentally and allow your filter to change, seeing others and various situations in a new light. Shedding smallness and inviting in the possibility of learning something new. Turning into the discomfort emotionally, and truly transitioning from a caterpillar into a butterfly.

Although I shy away from competition as a whole, I am often feeling competitive with myself. The old me vs. the new. Striving to be better than who i was yesterday. I've spent the last couple of years working my ass off internally, overcoming what I felt were unnecessary flaws and characteristics that held me back from fully being in life and with others. There were times in conversation when I would just wait for my turn to speak, but now I truly listen, hearing the other person's point of views and feeling their emotional stand point. Wanting to understand, learn, and connect. My world was a lot smaller years ago, being that I was always throwing a party of 1...self-centered, selfish, and clueless. Today, I take pride in the soul to soul moments and the real relationships that have taken shape because of my desire to push myself out of the cocoon that was once a thoughtless 20-something year old.

But what happens when those close to you fail to see your efforts? As if you will forever be "stuck" in their eyes? Almost feeling like some are simply just waiting for the "old" you to surface, often inserting that label where it doesn't even belong. How do we shed the frustration, hurt feelings, and constant desire to defend? #askingforafriend