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THE WEDDING DRESS

For those that have read "Ask The Muse" you know that the first story in that blog book begins with me leaving a marriage. What isn't discussed, is all that came before that moment. In 2009 I was engaged and planning a sincerely over-the-top affair at one of the most beautiful venues on Long Island. For two and half years, my Mother and I worked side by side like little elves, growing closer than ever before. My heart and soul knew that I had no business wal king down that isle, but there was a laundry list of reasons I proceeded, and enjoying the new-found relationship with Mom, was one of them. It was the 2nd dress I put on. It was a pure white, strapless, corset wedding ballgown that fit me like a princess. I loved that dress. In fact, the entire day was magic. Looking back now, I can see that even going into that morning was mostly just about me and my Mother. It had become our moment of triumph, celebration of life, and passing of the torch. It seemed to symbol

HOW I STAND UP FOR MYSELF

Being 'Spiritual' can somethings be confusing! (LOL) Let me elaborate... Last night my path crossed with an individual who preaches ways of peace and love, yet often fails to do so. I was immediately overwhelmed by harsh words from this person that appeared motivated by ego, narcissism, and insecurity. But this is not about that, nor about a bashing session. In fact, I can only type from my point of view and we all know that my filter could be jus t that....my own personal filter, and nothing more. There is a bigger reason for this blog; MY RESPONSE. Well, it was nothing. There was no response. Those that know me best may applaud my growth over the last couple years, yet would also laugh violently at some past memories of my very "less-than" ways. 5 years ago, I would have REACTED. Bold, fierce, and wild. Mirroring that person's behavior and engaging in what would mostly likely be a verbal confrontation that could linger for years. This is why Spirituali

AM I SPIRITUAL?

spir·it·u·al·i·ty; noun: the quality of being concerned with the human spirit or soul as opposed to material or physical things. ...well, that's the official definition of "Spirituality." I dig it. But what does being spiritual mean to YOU? Throwing that word around the South has often found me standing solo in front of some angry-God-fearing faces that may have had me quickly question whether or not people still burn others at the stake. (joking, not joking .) For me personally, being Spiritual simply just means anything that brings out your best self. Meditation is the most common word associated with spirituality and it is easy to see why. Daily meditation teaches you to control your thoughts, slow down your mind, and allow for your best self to shine. How amazing  <3  And your place/act of Spirituality can differ from one human to the next! Music, dance, hiking, surfing....anything that allows you to feel that positive vibration of love and connection to your

INTERVIEW YOUR LIFE

There was once a time where I said, "YES!" to just about everything. Whatever was new and crossing my path, I believe it had great direct purpose and would pounce. It could have been a new friend, job, relationship, etc. I was on a "YES" auto-pilot for years. Sometimes, a thirst like that would invite in experiences, adventures, and events that would often lead to the next chapter. I regret nothing. However, putting aside my disbelief in the concept of  regret, I still look back and see how running at the speed of MACH-Jesus actually held me back. I often tripped, stumbled, made a poor choice, or at times even got myself in tricky situations. Like a wild feline, I always landed on my feet and often think I might just actually have 9 lives. Today, the race is different; There isn't one. I am not sprinting to get ahead of myself, another, or to prove anything to the world. My favorite button that has developed inside my soul is the PAUSE button. (I have wrot

THE TIME HAS COME! SAID THE WALRUS TO THE CARPENTER

In two months I will have been at the Spa for exactly 1 full year. I took the part-time job behind the desk for the sole purpose of standing in FRONT of the desk. While getting accumulated with more Wellness knowledge, how this industry is run, and gathering up all my certifications, I would soon be ready to move away from answer phones and taking on clients full time. Sadly, life got in the way. Wait...no....scratch that.  I got in my own way. My Mother was dying and my motivation and passion went out the window. I just, kinda...stopped. I sat back and got more comfortable behind the desk and even went back to waitressing for a couple shifts. I was not unhappy with my choices at all actually, but more or less, simply content. I needed to PAUSE, so I did. Pause over. When the New Year came and the restaurant did not re-open as planned, I knew it was a giant, super loud Universally lit sign. In my face as usual. (Okay, I hear you!) Two days ago I had a powerful conversation wi

ARE YOU AN INTUITIVE EMPATH?

SIGNS YOU ARE "AN INTUITIVE EMPATH" 1) You can feel other people's emotions, but you have full awareness that they are not your own. 2) You can see beyond a person's feelings and instinctively understand the larger picture and what's truly behind their emotions. 3) You often help others better understand their own feelings, thoughts, and behaviors. 4) You are typically everyone's "go-to" for counseling & advice in your daily routine. 5) You are naturally hyper-sensitive. 6) You physically cannot stand to witness suffering in others. 7) You may not be comfortable in large groups, as all that energy is overwhelming. 8) Physical symptoms appear after emotionally intense situations. 9) You are basically a human lie detector. 10) You grow uncomfortable around those that are being inauthentic.

REIKI vs. READING

As my Reiki practice continues to grow strong, I find myself more than ever, hyper-focused on the client in front of me. My intent is not just to help them feel more at ease, relaxed, and tranquil, but to assist them in unblocking any old energies that may be stuck and hindering their natural, healthy, organic energy flow. I aim to clear away old emotional baggage, balance & activate their main Chakra points, and leave them feeling refreshed and recharged. ( My favorite is the white light bubble of protection....but that's another blog.) (((wink))) This past weekend, after a session with one of my Reiki clients, I could not deny the overwhelming sensation of depletion. I felt exhausted in a way that I have not felt during other sessions. After crashing into a full afternoon nap, I woke with curiosity and reached out to a couple fellow Reiki Practitioners for advice.One conversation really struck my soul and changed my perception, permanently... Since day 1, almost a year

ODD MAN OUT

I am in such a peculiar space in my life right now, socially. As my 34th birthday approaches this Spring, those that surround me now in my age-brack et are super busy with their children and all activities family oriented. I see those moms together at the bus stop sipping coffee or on their power-walks with baby strollers. Mommy & Me Yoga, toddler play dates, and girl scout cookies fill their days up almost completely. Without a child of my own, I often drift towards the younger crowd, yet I still struggle to find my place among the 20-somethings as they pack out their weekends with dating, drinking, and dancing. None of those activities are ones I seek to participate in. Those that stay out of trouble are typically doing so by default because their head is totally swamped inside a text book as they proudly further their college education. Once and a while I reach out to my most familiar girlfriends, that still reside up North, but even as we continue to survive the distance (du

THE SOCIAL IN SOCIAL MEDIA

The other morning I had an experience that I am not only dying to blog about, but I think it's pertinent that I do. While in my own l ittle head-space of a world, I just about accidentally ran over a fellow gym-goer coming out of the public bathroom stall. Not only was she forgiving of the fact that I clearly was not watching where I was going, but she handed me a great big smile and hello. I returned the greeting....kinda. Moments later after taking my spot on the floor in the cardio room, this beautiful lady approached me with concern in her eyes asking if I was okay and gently bringing to my attention that I didn't seem like myself minutes early when our paths crossed. My mind raced 72 ways in under 30 seconds... "I don't? Wait, am I okay? I am tired. Maybe she can see that I am tired. I don't have any concealer under my eyes. That's it. I look tired. Or maybe because you don't pay attention Chrissy! You practically ran her over in the bathroom. Ge