ODD MAN OUT

I am in such a peculiar space in my life right now, socially. As my 34th birthday approaches this Spring, those that surround me now in my age-bracket are super busy with their children and all activities family oriented. I see those moms together at the bus stop sipping coffee or on their power-walks with baby strollers. Mommy & Me Yoga, toddler play dates, and girl scout cookies fill their days up almost completely. Without a child of my own, I often drift towards the younger crowd, yet I still struggle to find my place among the 20-somethings as they pack out their weekends with dating, drinking, and dancing. None of those activities are ones I seek to participate in. Those that stay out of trouble are typically doing so by default because their head is totally swamped inside a text book as they proudly further their college education. Once and a while I reach out to my most familiar girlfriends, that still reside up North, but even as we continue to survive the distance (due to me living so far South) conversations can sometimes be a bit of a push, since many of my closest friends still see me in that old light they once knew me in. I have grown and transitioned so drastically, I am often not sure how to "show up" on the other end of the telephone. Authentic? Or the only way they know me?

Most of my days I spend alone, meditating and taking my two puppies on Earthy adventures. I am more than content with my daily dose of solitude, as the quiet is often broken up by Reiki clients, gym classes, and any additional hours at the Spa. Yet, some moments, however, I miss that female-specific interaction.That "best friend" you are inseparable with. For the last two years, that person filling those shoes is the one I married. Yes, of course it is a blessing that Julitto is my ultimate best friend. (A rare find, really.) BUT there is nothing like a girl friend.... especially when he is away training as much as he is.