FREE FROM SOCIAL MEDIA

FREE FROM SOCIAL MEDIA

Within the last 6 months, there have been countless number of changes and transitions that I have made. It is no surprise that I used the solitude of deployment to do my deepest inner soul work. You have followed along on most of the journey, like, during my hardest time of when I was finally admitting (and accepting) the giant part of me that truly did not ever want to be a Mother; children or pets. That was a tough vomit of truth. The shedding of responsibility is something that has continued as I no longer promote my business. Kinda-sorta-a little bit because, well, I don't want one. This morning I took on a Reiki client and yesterday an Oracle Card reading, but it was not promoted or even spoke about until this moment. It was a totally organic happening. I will always continue my Spiritual path within myself and helping others in anyway they seek but as far as the level of commitment and constant effort, I am simply not interested. I recently returned to waitressing where I gained back my financial freedom as well. Hmm..."freedom." That certainly seems to be key for me.

This past Tuesday, I sat down with one of my favorite mentors to do a bit more shadow work. After a couple hours of conversation over hot tea, I disclosed that there was one more thing I wish to shed; Facebook. I have come on and off various social media's in the past, but something feels different, and I am not even totally sure how to articulate it. She helped me verbalize some of the newest sensations of feeling "anchored" and on constant watch. I spoke about how I am doing a lot of introspective work on the concept of personality. Which parts of my personalty are from within..my inner being and true self, and which parts have simply just been developed over time...or created to survive socially? Facebook only adds to the creation and expectations of who I am to the eyes of the one viewing. A girlfriend of mine was sad to hear I of my upcoming deletion, and quickly informed me how much she enjoys watching my adventures, especially with Julitto. I hear that often. Friends and family rejoice in our photos of travel, Earth exploration, and passionate Twin Flame love. But after a while, for me, it becomes a responsibility. As if, I HAVE to post that hiking photo...because, it is expected. I no longer wish to be a representation of well...anything. In NY i represented dance fitness. Down here, it's my new found love of Spirituality. For others, it may just be "the girl who lived in a tent" or "the Twin Flames." It's restricting...to be expected to share with the world what they see in you, but what about what they don't? My inspirational blogs are welcomed by many...but what if i posted a meltdown? The internet would crash. LOL. I cannot stop observing what social media has done to everyday moments. I have literally been mid-conversation with a co-worker when they take their phone out and selfie themselves on Snapchat. ((((blink blink))) What is happening?! We are distracted. We are constantly trying to prove what we are and what we aren't. (Guilty!) Anow now, I am getting off the merri-go-round of ego. It no longer serves my growth.

And..well, I just want to be free from an audience, a title, and a label. I know, I know...this is a little too deep for 11am on a random Thursday. Hang in there with me. I'm almost done rambling.

Julitto is due home in a countdown, well, that can be just down to hours, really. I will happily and proudly share those beautiful photos of his safe arrival. And after that, I will be taking a major sabbatical from Facebook..diving back into our love bubble and living life without counting the "likes."

Thank you for all your love and support.