I was once an expert on running-a-muck. Yeah, that's a word. And it was 100% true. Sometimes my endless 90mph energy was put to good use towards things like exercise or extra-circular activities, but most of the time, it went towards being a self-proclaimed wild child. Social status, the dating world, and countless girlfriends were almost always at the top of my priority list. I will never forget the 1st time a Life Coach called me out on the fact that what I was really doing was simply avoiding "self." Refusing to sit with just me and be. Of course, by that time, I was barreling through my late 20's with a white knuckle grip onto what I thought was my identity. In fact, looking back, I believe a part of me feared that "settling down" would leave me restless and bored.
Today, I am proud to announce just how wrong I was. I will always be an adventure seeker, but the adventures I chose now are completely different than 5 years ago. My life has taken on this Zen-like vibe, where "action" is usually associated with a nature based activity, and my free time without Julitto, is spent mostly flying solo. I used to avoid the alone time, and yet now, i find it rewarding and refreshing. What I used to view as "boring" is now a feeling of clam and peace. I had no idea how truly exhausted I was running from myself, and telling the inner me that i was just enjoying being popular.
What I enjoy today is a little dose of that Lone-Wolf. When my husband is away at training, I surprisingly soak up those moments of solace during a music infused power walk, long bubble bath, or the quiet time where I am blogging and all I can hear is the sound of the keys being typed and light hum of this laptop. I had no idea that I was even capable of being my own best friend. 
....kinda proud of me!
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